My smile grows tiresome every passing day
my heart feels heavier with pain
All I can say to myself is forward
My smile becomes less frequent
My smile is less genuine every passing day
Do you see my tears?
I dare you to see the hurt you have caused.
Look real close into them and you’ll see my past life
All my past smiles and laughter.
I smile less and frown more
I laugh less and cry more.
My smile becomes more tiresome every passing day.
In my last moments will you be my last thought?
In my last moments would you even have a second in my story?
My life is composed of short snippets of film.
Snippets of the grand moments in my life.
They are all filled with joy and freedom.
Even as they lay me to rest; I still feel alive.
These are the moments I will hold on to in my end.
Do you see me in the air because that is where I’ll be.
via Daily Prompt: Snippet
Assumptions were made from the start
We thought we were on the same path
Foolishly we spoke about our chapter
The sway in your voice had an effect on me
Realization that this was a no mans land,
a one way path, came too late.
I was already in knee-deep in this mush
A one way street full of sinking sand
Yet, my hand reached out for yours
what I found was a ghost of a man
As my body sunk to the bottomless pit
my heart stayed with yours beating on last time. .
via Daily Prompt: One-Way
Reach deep within
Look for the ugliest parts
Face what most turn a blind eye too
Face those insecurities
Turn them around in your palm
Reach deep within
Where the light does not glow
Embrace those parts of you
For they are you
Be one with the ugly
Most importantly love yourself
I realize that I’m not the same person anymore.
Every time I look around me I see it more and more
There are moments I loathe the person I have become
In those moments I wish there was a way to start over
In those moments do I look deep within and dislike what I see
I cry the most of the person that I can become
This person who will be alone for ever
I realize I am not the same anymore but neither are you
My heart aches for all my lost time
It weeps for the future and the past
Late nights thinking of how things could change
Dreaming of the day that will never come
Yes, I realize I am no longer the same
yet, you are not the same either, so lets not pretend
we are both the same. .
Change with the wind
Change with the color of the leafs
I know that I’ll be who I’m supposed to be
Criticize if you wish for ill always be me
Even if that means that you won’t know me
I’m not as simplistic as people believe
Im no angel nor a thief
I’m two halves of a whole just wait and see
For when these two subside
There will be inner peace
That is where you will find me
You’ll finally see whose been within me
The facade will be over after all these years
You will never be able to diminish me
For I am two halves of a whole that complete me
sweet dreams end in tragedy
love for one self turns to hate
self-love turns in to distaste
happiness seems unreachable
laying with the enemy changes you
wishing to swim in sin once more
Lying to one self for one night
Sweet dreams that end in tragedy
Would it be worth it for only one night?
Even if the price to pay is losing yourself
Losing you; to swim in sin once more?