Poems

Flips Everything

sweet dreams end in tragedy

love for one self turns to hate

self-love turns in to distaste

happiness seems unreachable

laying with the enemy changes you

wishing to swim in sin once more

Lying to one self for one night

Sweet dreams that end in tragedy

Would it be worth it for only one night?

Even if the price to pay is losing yourself

Losing you; to swim in sin once more?

 

Poems

Bare

For me it was real; even if it wouldn’t last

for me every moment, every conversation meant something

The silly games you would play that made me smile was real

I meant every word I had shared with you

None, of me was a lie; it was all real

Now, my heart crumbles with the thought of the lies

My breath shakes when I think of all those past times

I pride myself of being my self and now I fear of it

I fear being judge for who I am or rejected because of it

Mostly I fear of being taken advantage of once again

Trust is no longer one of my cards

Trust of people over all has forsaken me

Poems

Today I saw you

Today I saw a picture of you

All the memories I suppress fluttered back

The feelings were felt once more

Yes, even the ones I loathe

Today I saw a picture of you

I was once again reminded of you

Reminded of the things you took from me

My heart is full sorrow for the friend I lost

Today I saw a picture of you

A picture that I wanted to burn

A picture of a man who hurt me so

A friend who was not really a friend

Today I saw a picture of you

Of a person who is lost

Of a person who blames the world

For the misfortunes that he brings upon himself

Today I saw a picture of my mistake

That I wish I could burn off my skin

To day I saw a picture of a blank space that for ever will be known as you

Poems

Fantasy Vs. Reality

I live for the fantasy that it would be me

That you would be better for me

Yet, as time goes by the truth settles in

Every syllable that vibrated out of those lips

Where to string me along, made to torture me

Time passes me by as it normally does

The realization that i meant nothing

Just a person to fill a gap in time

Just an object to manipulate

The change I wanted to see from you

I would not be the one to inspire it

Who knows if anyone will.

I lived for that fantasy once

Yet, now it’s a nightmare I can not surpass