Poems

Not the same

I realize that I’m not the same person anymore.

Every time I look around me I see it more and more

There are moments I loathe the person I have become

In those moments I wish there was a way to start over

In those moments do I look deep within and dislike what I see

I cry the most of the person that I can become

This person who will be alone for ever

I realize I am not the same anymore but neither are you

My heart aches for all my lost time

It weeps for the future and the past

Late nights thinking of how things could change

Dreaming of the day that will never come

Yes, I realize I am no longer the same

yet, you are not the same either, so lets not pretend

we are both the same. .

Poems

Truth is. .

If my walls could talk they tell you

How I clutch my pillows at night

If my walls had sight

they will describe how my chest vibrates from pain when I cry

Those are things you will never understand

How it is to love someone and walk away

Walk away even if it destroyed me

I’ve spent to many nights on the floor

with my heart right next to me

you will never understand how all of this feels

Truth is that my pain brings a smile to those lips

Those lips that I loved to love

Truth of the matter is that you meant everything to me

Poems

Being one

Change with the wind

Change with the color of the leafs

I know that I’ll be who I’m supposed to be

Criticize if you wish for ill always be me

Even if that means that you won’t know me

I’m not as simplistic as people believe

Im no angel nor a thief

I’m two halves of a whole just wait and see

For when these two subside

There will be inner peace

That is where you will find me

You’ll finally see whose been within me

The facade will be over after all these years

You will never be able to diminish me

For I am two halves of a whole that complete me

Poems

Poison

it’s slow like poison reaching the heart

we pretend we are okay

that it does not hurt to breathe

we become tired to the point of no return

our will to fight diminishes every passing day

we blame our selves and the world for the

crumbling walls within

blame everyone and everything except the one

It’s a slow poison that sweeps through the blood

Slowly it moves until it stops the heart

The one muscle that with holds beyond any regrets

 

 

Random thoughts

Small moments of despair

We all have moments in our life that tear us down and threatens to destroy us. I’ve been dealing with this accept of life for a while now, the lies that comes out of my mouth on a daily surprises me. Yet, it is the only way that I can stay sane in my daily life. It’s extremely difficult to not let myself crumble even at my lowest moments. While many may think that its ridicules to come overwhelm with emotions over an individual; to me it’s about losing trust in people. The saying we are all going through something could not be even more truthful. It’s ridiculous to think that my issues are more important than someone else’s issues. Not to diminish what is going on in my life, but there is a time and place for everything and while trying to build a career or even opportunities for myself this emotional aspect needs to be turned off. It has been a trait I learned to apply in life in my adult years and to be honest the hardest of things to apply. Yet, it has been the most full filling lessons I have learned as of yet.

Always remember,

Solo Sonrie

Just smile.

 

 

Poems

Flips Everything

sweet dreams end in tragedy

love for one self turns to hate

self-love turns in to distaste

happiness seems unreachable

laying with the enemy changes you

wishing to swim in sin once more

Lying to one self for one night

Sweet dreams that end in tragedy

Would it be worth it for only one night?

Even if the price to pay is losing yourself

Losing you; to swim in sin once more?